so DC is opening in five days.
today was a fairly good day. was packing props with chao qian and manchao, who made it such a joy to work with them. they kept on giggling like lil girls and got really happy and excited at all the little things. it was really nice. i felt very thankful that despite today being a sunday, and having that dreary grey weather, they were still so cheerful. instantaneously brightening up my day.
and i had lunch/coffee with yulin today. and sat in her ride for the v first time! :D it was awesome. sigh. i really really really wish i could drive now. i was too overly dependent on others to shuttle me around, and then being too complacent with the transport system since i had such a lax schedule, that i forgot that SOME DAYS (like for the past few weeks) kinda required me to be in two places at nearly the same time. and days like these do i really wish that i could drive myself around.
and i think that i have a bad bad tendency to be over the top about things. like, when im happy, i get too effing happy i dance around like an idiot. when im sad i feel so effing sad that i'd feel like i have to over-do something in order to make myself regret sth to forget that im effing sad abt sth else.
like recently it's clearly been all about running and overeating chilli.
and other stuff, like stuffing myself with food so that i hate myself for eating.
i thought i haven't relied on drinking because i have gotten more matured and made running my new potion. i guess the real reason is somewhat close. i can't afford to be sick right now, and i am afraid that burning my throat is gonna result in a bad flu which means i'd be sick and then it'd be the end of the already chui event.
thank god i haven't succumbed to touching the pack at all. that would be the end of me. i am already craving for it when i haven't touched it for like nearly two years.
so what made me so bloody upset tonight? my committee, who all just stepped down two weeks back. not all. but particularly some whom i held high standards for.
okay, focus on good thoughts:
chaoqian and manchao, yu lin, and ethan (whom is always a huge joy to bump into at CFA, i must really buy him chocolates or sth)
and of course, adeline, kristen, xuezheng and raymond. who are all my pillars of support for this upcoming event. really. if any of them falters or loses hope on me or the project. i think i would just die. (note how many of them are in my last committee, and give me reasons why i shouldnt feel suicidal)
and my lovely friends who promised that they would support the show because they know this is nearly like my final year project and i've been feeling like dying for the longest time.
and my parents, who shower me with love and support.
and my new brown hair that everyone seems to like. i myself, like it somedays when it doesn't look reddish.
my green nails
and people like sean, aaron, and bjc. all of whom understand me and really take time off just to care for me. especially when i act all foolish. (also indicating that i really really really need to hook up with my girlfriends more)
in the mood to listen to some heartache annie lennox songs
