my heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains
hello!
=) schools so boring. im having lecture now and im blogging again.
ohk. im feeling kinda down because i feel so stupid in classes cos ihavent been reading as fast as everybody apparently is. or when i rmb the term but dont remember what it is about.
or maybe im down because i just watched the milgram's experiment. it's about this guy who created an experiment such that people knowingly 'torture' a participant they cannot see. they have to flip a switch that delivers an 'electric shock' to a person in another room if the person answers a question wrongly. and alot of them just continues to shock the other person although the person pleads to be let go.
which is just plain. scary.
it's as scary as the experiment where they created this fake jail environment and put people in there and randomly put them as guards and jailmates. and the guards just treats the jailmates very badly and the jailmates do not plead to get out even when they are allowed to get out of the expt whenever they want.
yes. today started out violently sucky. (at least relative to the past few weeks) The sudden realisation that results arent that easy to achieve. and that there's actually so much possibility of failing.
=( well im not the only person feeling sucky right now.
but i guess i shall try to neglect the unhappiness. because there's much to look forward to. i think. =))
=)
AND THIS BOY IS SUCH A CHAUVINIST. GIRLS PLEASE BOX THE FACE OF THE MOHAWK GUY IF U SEE HIM AROUND IN SCHOOL. picture is ABOVE.
studying at biz library quite long ago. it was like a picnic please. haha marcus before he turned blonde. he looks so cute when hes sleeping. like a bbbbabyyy. hahaa jingxiong after he woke up from sleeeping. alvin youtubing. jingxiong in soci lecture. HAHA
it's an exciting morning. im at psych lecture. how fun. i love psych.
what else. i loveee everybody in psych. they all look so happy and beautiful.
there's a soci test tmr. i love soci too. everybody in soci is so fun, and cynical. and beautiful too.
ahaha. and i've got bio assignment tmr. i feel so happy. i love baffling myself, with terms i dont even understand.
oh and there's changing landscapes homework too. which i haven't touched. my gawd whats wrong with me! i love gek so freaking much. it's like so fun to know how singapore shapes it's awesome strategies.
this is pretty dudley.
im such a happy person. WHEEEE. oh and im looking at natalie and marcus(not the blonde) moving up and down and up and down the aisle in lt11. where are they going? that's realli beyond me. it sure looks like they are gonna pon lecture cos it's that cheena lecturer today. I SEE. why. i love cheena lectureres. they are so adorable. especially when they start talking. maybe i shld go down there and give her a hug. shes looking so aodrable covering her mouth while she yawns. yeah, cos psych is so exciting.
marcus(the blonde) came in. hes quite alone cos the other natlie and marcus left. it's fun being alone too. i love being alone sometimes. especially since im the only child im mostly alone last time anyway. BUT i hate being alone when im this large crowded messy place. so in school i hate being alone. unless im alone.
haha. I THINK. anyway WHY SO EMO SUDDENLY. ITS SUCH A FANTASTIC HAPPY DAY since I GOT SO MUCH WORK TO DO. WHEEEE and awesome alvin is coming later. and studying with derrick too. HOW AWESOMENESS THE AWESOME. and minghui is here. wheee.
my hse has a freaking rat infestation. even after the rat killers came the day before. okay rats look quite cute. but what they do is realli disgusting. theyve been shitting in my car. okay. that's okay. they brought bones into my nieghbour's cars. so we got the pest company to come. and then yesterday on our way out. i saw a rat run out from under our car. so i was like oh my gawd. we drove out to the vidsitor's parking. there my dad opened the bonnet of the car. and next to our battery was a CHICKEN HEAD!!! =( the smell was realli bad. the and it just grossed me out completely my dad getting a bucket to wash out the front. my mom and our neighbour talking about it.. ergh i hate rats.
waiting to move... we all took turns sitting on top. it's such a nice feeling. everyone must tryyyyy someday. if u think sitting behind lorry damn fun, then u shld try sitting on the roof of a lorry. the rubbish was realli horrible. honestly. nobody bothered. yucks. this picture was taken when kenneth was telling everyone that hey they did manage to move everything in the designated time. and like yippee and yays.
i do actually take alot of pics on my hp all the time. thinking i would wanna blog about it but i never did. SO yeah thers alot. =) i always pick the 'best' time to do these kinda things.this reminds me of the song. 'theres a little black spot on the sun today, it's the same old thing as yesterday.. .. i have stood here before inside the pouring rain. with the world turning circles running round my brain. i guess im always hoping that you'd end this reign. but it's my destiny to be the king of pain'. syaq sent me alanis morissettes's vers of this song. love it. =) this is at queenstown mrt station where i would wait for my mom to pick me up after work. i love cats. and it's upside down. and i actually intended to right side it up. but yeah, i think it's interesting to see it this way. i sat facing this side of the tracks for a considerable amount of time. then i was wondering why people sitting on the same bench as me were all facing the opposite direction. THEN i saw why. how silly. =) green and mean. i like it. oh this is just random. it so happened that everyone got caught in the frame. no other significance. i love them.
i was just feeling realli lucky to get to eat so many types of fruits after dinner. it's cool. not everyone gets to eat fruits after dinner. hahahaha. i hate papaya tho. anyway it isnt healthy to eat fruits after dinner actually. but anyway. LUCKY alright.
this is just to commemorate my one month long vegetarian thing. my sustenance was this and subway veggie delite and mos burger's only two veggetarian burgers. it wasnt horrible being veggie. it just wasnt too good for me. i didnt know how to cook veggie for myself. and my friends were kinda sick of me cos it was so difficult to find a place to eat. and they all said i wouldnt last. well, yeah here u go then. i found this highly amusing. haha. it's like totally what the hell? (and ur probably thinking, what the hell too, how come i found it amusing. such is it) the amazingly beautiful toilet at that place at mount faber. (is it mount faber?) this picture was realli smart. u can see EVERY single part of the toilet. well i only realised it after. hahaha. thers a freaking fish tank at the side. and the beautiful view behind! it was realli much nicer than the ballroom itself. wellll okay i took this picture because of my eyeliner. not exactly flattering. hahaha. but still i like it. i still like this pic i mean.
sometimes i think i m so dumb im tired of telling and telling when it never fails to come to a nought or worse unsympthetic is that heart who does not want feeling that water that i believe almost can save me from myself and you whom i always wanted to pull me from drowning this is hardly for you or anyone i want to say its just something for me to so that i wouldnt always end up crying it s not always so easy when you always nearly blind me from seeing the people whom really very fucking care and thats the people i end up killing you think you can see right me right through but i see nothing and it feels so baffling
no more tests this week! just a two page term paper for psych and bio homework and im freeeeeee. no actually not. still got gek homework. ARHHHH
but im so happy anyway, the lack of sleep is driving me nuts. and i doubt i'd be sleeping tonight.
well, i was looking out for pretty girls in school today, as if i dont do that everyday. but the weirdest thing is that u never see pretty girls when u want to! at least not those who are like super pretty.okay i just saw a girl with like weird cuts on her, =( people shouldnt cut themselves where it can be seen because it's so weird and attention seeking.
oh and i swear, the top floor girls toilet in the central library must be perfect for shitting or sth everytime i go in there it there is just that smell of shitttttttt............
i know why am i talking about it on my blog. but i m super tired.
yays.
super duper freaking tired
oh i found a realli good act in america's got talent. U MUST WATCH =D
my heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains
hello!
=) schools so boring. im having lecture now and im blogging again.
ohk. im feeling kinda down because i feel so stupid in classes cos ihavent been reading as fast as everybody apparently is. or when i rmb the term but dont remember what it is about.
or maybe im down because i just watched the milgram's experiment. it's about this guy who created an experiment such that people knowingly 'torture' a participant they cannot see. they have to flip a switch that delivers an 'electric shock' to a person in another room if the person answers a question wrongly. and alot of them just continues to shock the other person although the person pleads to be let go.
which is just plain. scary.
it's as scary as the experiment where they created this fake jail environment and put people in there and randomly put them as guards and jailmates. and the guards just treats the jailmates very badly and the jailmates do not plead to get out even when they are allowed to get out of the expt whenever they want.
yes. today started out violently sucky. (at least relative to the past few weeks) The sudden realisation that results arent that easy to achieve. and that there's actually so much possibility of failing.
=( well im not the only person feeling sucky right now.
but i guess i shall try to neglect the unhappiness. because there's much to look forward to. i think. =))
=)
AND THIS BOY IS SUCH A CHAUVINIST. GIRLS PLEASE BOX THE FACE OF THE MOHAWK GUY IF U SEE HIM AROUND IN SCHOOL. picture is ABOVE.
studying at biz library quite long ago. it was like a picnic please. haha marcus before he turned blonde. he looks so cute when hes sleeping. like a bbbbabyyy. hahaa jingxiong after he woke up from sleeeping. alvin youtubing. jingxiong in soci lecture. HAHA
it's an exciting morning. im at psych lecture. how fun. i love psych.
what else. i loveee everybody in psych. they all look so happy and beautiful.
there's a soci test tmr. i love soci too. everybody in soci is so fun, and cynical. and beautiful too.
ahaha. and i've got bio assignment tmr. i feel so happy. i love baffling myself, with terms i dont even understand.
oh and there's changing landscapes homework too. which i haven't touched. my gawd whats wrong with me! i love gek so freaking much. it's like so fun to know how singapore shapes it's awesome strategies.
this is pretty dudley.
im such a happy person. WHEEEE. oh and im looking at natalie and marcus(not the blonde) moving up and down and up and down the aisle in lt11. where are they going? that's realli beyond me. it sure looks like they are gonna pon lecture cos it's that cheena lecturer today. I SEE. why. i love cheena lectureres. they are so adorable. especially when they start talking. maybe i shld go down there and give her a hug. shes looking so aodrable covering her mouth while she yawns. yeah, cos psych is so exciting.
marcus(the blonde) came in. hes quite alone cos the other natlie and marcus left. it's fun being alone too. i love being alone sometimes. especially since im the only child im mostly alone last time anyway. BUT i hate being alone when im this large crowded messy place. so in school i hate being alone. unless im alone.
haha. I THINK. anyway WHY SO EMO SUDDENLY. ITS SUCH A FANTASTIC HAPPY DAY since I GOT SO MUCH WORK TO DO. WHEEEE and awesome alvin is coming later. and studying with derrick too. HOW AWESOMENESS THE AWESOME. and minghui is here. wheee.
my hse has a freaking rat infestation. even after the rat killers came the day before. okay rats look quite cute. but what they do is realli disgusting. theyve been shitting in my car. okay. that's okay. they brought bones into my nieghbour's cars. so we got the pest company to come. and then yesterday on our way out. i saw a rat run out from under our car. so i was like oh my gawd. we drove out to the vidsitor's parking. there my dad opened the bonnet of the car. and next to our battery was a CHICKEN HEAD!!! =( the smell was realli bad. the and it just grossed me out completely my dad getting a bucket to wash out the front. my mom and our neighbour talking about it.. ergh i hate rats.
waiting to move... we all took turns sitting on top. it's such a nice feeling. everyone must tryyyyy someday. if u think sitting behind lorry damn fun, then u shld try sitting on the roof of a lorry. the rubbish was realli horrible. honestly. nobody bothered. yucks. this picture was taken when kenneth was telling everyone that hey they did manage to move everything in the designated time. and like yippee and yays.
i do actually take alot of pics on my hp all the time. thinking i would wanna blog about it but i never did. SO yeah thers alot. =) i always pick the 'best' time to do these kinda things.this reminds me of the song. 'theres a little black spot on the sun today, it's the same old thing as yesterday.. .. i have stood here before inside the pouring rain. with the world turning circles running round my brain. i guess im always hoping that you'd end this reign. but it's my destiny to be the king of pain'. syaq sent me alanis morissettes's vers of this song. love it. =) this is at queenstown mrt station where i would wait for my mom to pick me up after work. i love cats. and it's upside down. and i actually intended to right side it up. but yeah, i think it's interesting to see it this way. i sat facing this side of the tracks for a considerable amount of time. then i was wondering why people sitting on the same bench as me were all facing the opposite direction. THEN i saw why. how silly. =) green and mean. i like it. oh this is just random. it so happened that everyone got caught in the frame. no other significance. i love them.
i was just feeling realli lucky to get to eat so many types of fruits after dinner. it's cool. not everyone gets to eat fruits after dinner. hahahaha. i hate papaya tho. anyway it isnt healthy to eat fruits after dinner actually. but anyway. LUCKY alright.
this is just to commemorate my one month long vegetarian thing. my sustenance was this and subway veggie delite and mos burger's only two veggetarian burgers. it wasnt horrible being veggie. it just wasnt too good for me. i didnt know how to cook veggie for myself. and my friends were kinda sick of me cos it was so difficult to find a place to eat. and they all said i wouldnt last. well, yeah here u go then. i found this highly amusing. haha. it's like totally what the hell? (and ur probably thinking, what the hell too, how come i found it amusing. such is it) the amazingly beautiful toilet at that place at mount faber. (is it mount faber?) this picture was realli smart. u can see EVERY single part of the toilet. well i only realised it after. hahaha. thers a freaking fish tank at the side. and the beautiful view behind! it was realli much nicer than the ballroom itself. wellll okay i took this picture because of my eyeliner. not exactly flattering. hahaha. but still i like it. i still like this pic i mean.
sometimes i think i m so dumb im tired of telling and telling when it never fails to come to a nought or worse unsympthetic is that heart who does not want feeling that water that i believe almost can save me from myself and you whom i always wanted to pull me from drowning this is hardly for you or anyone i want to say its just something for me to so that i wouldnt always end up crying it s not always so easy when you always nearly blind me from seeing the people whom really very fucking care and thats the people i end up killing you think you can see right me right through but i see nothing and it feels so baffling
no more tests this week! just a two page term paper for psych and bio homework and im freeeeeee. no actually not. still got gek homework. ARHHHH
but im so happy anyway, the lack of sleep is driving me nuts. and i doubt i'd be sleeping tonight.
well, i was looking out for pretty girls in school today, as if i dont do that everyday. but the weirdest thing is that u never see pretty girls when u want to! at least not those who are like super pretty.okay i just saw a girl with like weird cuts on her, =( people shouldnt cut themselves where it can be seen because it's so weird and attention seeking.
oh and i swear, the top floor girls toilet in the central library must be perfect for shitting or sth everytime i go in there it there is just that smell of shitttttttt............
i know why am i talking about it on my blog. but i m super tired.
yays.
super duper freaking tired
oh i found a realli good act in america's got talent. U MUST WATCH =D
unfair =(
