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http://onemorelevel.com/game/infectonator_christmas_edition --> super brainless (or headless or upper torsoless) but fun game.
Incredible morning. I woke up at 730am feeling super awake. Why.
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yes. new new year resolution.
stay sober and above water.
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ohhhhh.......
it makes sense now. i won't let my friends overdrink ever. no more merlions and walking through walls.
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It starts out easy, something simple, something sleazy, something inching past the edge of reserve.
Now through the lines of the cheap venetian blinds your car is pulling off of the curb.
Hey!
Just when you think you're in control,
just when you think you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
Oh, here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I should have known, should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
I think, my problem is that i like to understand the reason why. My belief is that by knowing exactly 'why', then I will be able to comprehend and possibly predict any similar circumstances. But then I slowly realise that knowing why is simply not enough to act on anything. Because, sometimes, people aren't gonna tell u the whole truth anyway. So, yeah my dad and kenny is right. Just act on the problem.
Anyhow, I was just thinking of two things to add to my 2010 resolutions. Run
oh wait, i had other stuff to add. I can't rmb already. wah lao. lousy memory.
Oh, and magazines are evil. I was just sipping hot choc with duds at starbucks and thumbing through seventeen mag (which happens to have a gross photo of miley cyrus on the cover), and it has pretty awesome things i think i NEED. But what i really need to fulfil my needs is more moolah. which i am seriously lacking thereof. SAD. :(
And hanging out with ade and mich was damn awesome. There is moooore to comeeee. yays! :)
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hahaha. nothing too happy to say for my side. but i sincerely hope my friends are having loads of fun!!! :):):)
when you care too much for a person, you want to change a person. but that is plain impossible. that's what my dad said this morning when he saw that i was so upset with my cousin. and him saying that made feel sadder still because I can't believe that was the stem of all my troubles and I never thought of it before.
and it sorta connected with what i learnt about anger from my emo class. anger and aggression is good for maintaining relationships because it tells people what your limits are, and hence facilitate better relationships in the future.
i'm angry and coldwarring with that girl because i feel upset that she can be so ungrateful. but she doesn't understand. which makes her a stupid girl. and i feel so upset because i treat her like my sister, but she obviously doesn't feel the same way towards me. i'm hurt. i'm fucking hurt by what she's done for the past few weeks. and i've enough of it. she's just my distant australian stupid cousin from now on.
and it's funny now i think about how i've been so upset with duds for a whole year. and i realise that it's only because i was trying to change him as well. and if i can't change him for one whole year, i doubt i can change my cousin in a few days. and i guess the same goes for my friends who have boyfriend troubles. the problem was so plainly-in-your-face. i just can't believe we didn't realise it. it's just this unrealistic optimism that someday people will change.
i'm not sure what this all really implicates with this new understanding of mine. does it mean that i'm too controlling? and i shld relax a little? or does it mean that i shld just take r/s that don't work more lightly and not get too affected by it? well, then won't my life just be filled with superficial relationships. well, isn't only r/s suppose to work if compromises are to be made? so in this case, what kinda compromise will i make?
okay, anyway things aside - since shes out of sight, then it's out of mind.
it's weird that this year i'm back that my older cousin is married. he is like only 2 years older than me. and his bride is 21 too. omg. :\ well, okay the plus point abt marrying young and having kids young is that you will have lesser of an age gap with ur kid, and probably more energy to care for them, and the plus plus point is that if you don't macdees and smoke and drink, you might even live to see your great grandchildren. sounds like a damn awesome idea. but there's so much more things i wanna do before i wanna have kids and tell them stories of things that i've done. and u know, know more about the world so that i can better teach them? i guess i really need to get the hang of multi-tasking. it's possible to have a kid and be in uni right? haha. damnit. this sucks.
okay change topic, now i'm thinking about my damn good friend who is smitten by this girl he doesn't know. ha. why does this always happen. okay enough of changing topics. it's xmas day. i shld get out and see what there is for moi to do. maybe sit downstairs with the dogs.
and dud's so damn lucky he's in bkk already. im damn jealous.... :(
OKAY MERRY XMAS EVERYONE. I LOVE ALL OF YOU BUT ONE. :) IM SUCH A PETTY BITCH. HA. ah well, it's christmas, forgive me. :)
- edited: because she's my cousin afterall. i can hate her but shes still 'family'. bah.
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yays it's christmas again! i'm quite sad though. i'm leaving this place on the 27th. back to reality. im gonna miss so many things. like just sitting quietly on my own by the stairs, feeling the breeze, seeing the butterfly flit around the nice freshly painted fences, see the bird negotiate with the flowers on the plants in the hse, wearing sunnies like a rockstar all the time because this place is just so damn sunny, looking at the occasional car go by, staring at the puffy low-lying clouds, hearing the cockerel next door cockadoodle loudly not because it's morning but because it successfully got up a tree, see the 8 chicks huddle at the side of the road because the mother hen took 9 chicks out for a walk and absentmindedly left 8 of them by the side of the road just a street down from their home, waking up at 6plus am because there is actually something to at 6plus am and not an empty house because this place is just filled with people.
everythings like so slow-moving here it's so nice. my dad commented that in this place, people have time for each other. and i guess it's true. like, in Singapore, zebra-crossing only works when the pedastrian steps on the road, then cars MAY stop, but here, you can be very farawy from the zebra-crossing and if the driver senses that you are gonna cross the road then they will just stop anyway, and there's hardly any pressure for you to cross quickly. but of course, the malays here have more power i think. but omg. relak relak :)
but then again, life is so wols that it gets a little sian. like esp since i can't drive? so i can't get out to find friends or anything. wait, i don't even have phone reception, so i get smses intermittently. but wow, juwita from cfa managed to call me. :\ ha.
and oh ya, they have two dogs here. two sausage dogs. omg i love dogs now. hahahahaha. they are so fun to tease. and they are so sweet. like the younger dog is called fifi. and fifi is usually super scared of people, like it won't even let you touch it. but then it's quite relaxed and it let me carry it like a baby. and this morning when i woke up, and got out of my room, the two dogs were running around and fifi came and licked my toes. hahaha. freaking adorable.
now i sorta wish i had a dog. cats first, then maybe a dog.
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okayy so today is the 4th day in brunei. so far so good. i've been catching up on sleep. last night slept like around 8 plus. i meant to like catch up with my friends here but right now im stuck in this place which is not very far from town, but i can't drive and there are pratically no public transport here so im stuck. and i can't ask pple to drive in because they have to pay toll which is like 6 bucks? cos my uncle's place is going towards m'sia and they stupidly placed a toll both there for pple to pay for the bridge they built that connects this part of brunei to msia. and anw, my cousin's computer is full of fringe, lost, csi miami and all this other shows? and gossip girls??? gasp. he's a guy btw. and like 2 years older than me. and there is jenniffer's body as well. HAHA. yays!!! zzz but anyway, it's a blessing in disguise because i badly need the sleep and rest. so im actually quite disinterested to meet them already. anw, im sorta annoyed. my mom said i was a little fat and then now my uncle met me and he said i was majorly fat and that it was downhill for me. wtf. and he predicted my wt to be like 60? :( well, not that im depressed about it. but it's just a bit annoying because im trying to tell myself that im okay wt. well on the bright side, dud and i are okay finally. :) im glad. hope it lasts forever. and, results come out tmr? WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. scared. and the production (the only thing that floats in my mind all the time really) is at a standstill. im freaking out. but anyway, i wish u all a happy holidays! merry xmas! don't stuff urself (like turkeys)! hahahaa. lame.
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where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling
spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
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http://www.onemorelevel.com/game/the_company_of_myself
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i don't understand how i can feel so damn fucking down for so many days in a row. wtf. something interesting has to happen and take me out of my own head.
:(
shld i get another ear piercing? shld i get a piercing somewhere else? a tattoo!
well, something did nearly lift me out of the mood. a cute guy at this chocolate shop seemed interested in my cousin. but he was SO shy it was so funny. okay, actually thinking about it makes me feel slightly cheered up again.
now the thing is to keep my mind off myself because it spreads so quickly engulfing every single aspect of myself that i hate. :(
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but i feel like im dying inside. i keep shopping and getting out but i don't feel any happier. it's just so unexplainable. my mind just oscillates between d and what happened on wed. :(
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i cannot even bear to see partying photos. makes me feel super nauseated.
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sometimes i am just left so confused as to what is going on.
and actually, super larmbho on the go is the worst idea on earth.
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http://onemorelevel.com/game/infectonator_christmas_edition --> super brainless (or headless or upper torsoless) but fun game.
Incredible morning. I woke up at 730am feeling super awake. Why.
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yes. new new year resolution.
stay sober and above water.
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ohhhhh.......
it makes sense now. i won't let my friends overdrink ever. no more merlions and walking through walls.
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It starts out easy, something simple, something sleazy, something inching past the edge of reserve.
Now through the lines of the cheap venetian blinds your car is pulling off of the curb.
Hey!
Just when you think you're in control,
just when you think you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
Oh, here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I should have known, should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
I think, my problem is that i like to understand the reason why. My belief is that by knowing exactly 'why', then I will be able to comprehend and possibly predict any similar circumstances. But then I slowly realise that knowing why is simply not enough to act on anything. Because, sometimes, people aren't gonna tell u the whole truth anyway. So, yeah my dad and kenny is right. Just act on the problem.
Anyhow, I was just thinking of two things to add to my 2010 resolutions. Run
oh wait, i had other stuff to add. I can't rmb already. wah lao. lousy memory.
Oh, and magazines are evil. I was just sipping hot choc with duds at starbucks and thumbing through seventeen mag (which happens to have a gross photo of miley cyrus on the cover), and it has pretty awesome things i think i NEED. But what i really need to fulfil my needs is more moolah. which i am seriously lacking thereof. SAD. :(
And hanging out with ade and mich was damn awesome. There is moooore to comeeee. yays! :)
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hahaha. nothing too happy to say for my side. but i sincerely hope my friends are having loads of fun!!! :):):)
when you care too much for a person, you want to change a person. but that is plain impossible. that's what my dad said this morning when he saw that i was so upset with my cousin. and him saying that made feel sadder still because I can't believe that was the stem of all my troubles and I never thought of it before.
and it sorta connected with what i learnt about anger from my emo class. anger and aggression is good for maintaining relationships because it tells people what your limits are, and hence facilitate better relationships in the future.
i'm angry and coldwarring with that girl because i feel upset that she can be so ungrateful. but she doesn't understand. which makes her a stupid girl. and i feel so upset because i treat her like my sister, but she obviously doesn't feel the same way towards me. i'm hurt. i'm fucking hurt by what she's done for the past few weeks. and i've enough of it. she's just my distant australian stupid cousin from now on.
and it's funny now i think about how i've been so upset with duds for a whole year. and i realise that it's only because i was trying to change him as well. and if i can't change him for one whole year, i doubt i can change my cousin in a few days. and i guess the same goes for my friends who have boyfriend troubles. the problem was so plainly-in-your-face. i just can't believe we didn't realise it. it's just this unrealistic optimism that someday people will change.
i'm not sure what this all really implicates with this new understanding of mine. does it mean that i'm too controlling? and i shld relax a little? or does it mean that i shld just take r/s that don't work more lightly and not get too affected by it? well, then won't my life just be filled with superficial relationships. well, isn't only r/s suppose to work if compromises are to be made? so in this case, what kinda compromise will i make?
okay, anyway things aside - since shes out of sight, then it's out of mind.
it's weird that this year i'm back that my older cousin is married. he is like only 2 years older than me. and his bride is 21 too. omg. :\ well, okay the plus point abt marrying young and having kids young is that you will have lesser of an age gap with ur kid, and probably more energy to care for them, and the plus plus point is that if you don't macdees and smoke and drink, you might even live to see your great grandchildren. sounds like a damn awesome idea. but there's so much more things i wanna do before i wanna have kids and tell them stories of things that i've done. and u know, know more about the world so that i can better teach them? i guess i really need to get the hang of multi-tasking. it's possible to have a kid and be in uni right? haha. damnit. this sucks.
okay change topic, now i'm thinking about my damn good friend who is smitten by this girl he doesn't know. ha. why does this always happen. okay enough of changing topics. it's xmas day. i shld get out and see what there is for moi to do. maybe sit downstairs with the dogs.
and dud's so damn lucky he's in bkk already. im damn jealous.... :(
OKAY MERRY XMAS EVERYONE. I LOVE ALL OF YOU BUT ONE. :) IM SUCH A PETTY BITCH. HA. ah well, it's christmas, forgive me. :)
- edited: because she's my cousin afterall. i can hate her but shes still 'family'. bah.
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yays it's christmas again! i'm quite sad though. i'm leaving this place on the 27th. back to reality. im gonna miss so many things. like just sitting quietly on my own by the stairs, feeling the breeze, seeing the butterfly flit around the nice freshly painted fences, see the bird negotiate with the flowers on the plants in the hse, wearing sunnies like a rockstar all the time because this place is just so damn sunny, looking at the occasional car go by, staring at the puffy low-lying clouds, hearing the cockerel next door cockadoodle loudly not because it's morning but because it successfully got up a tree, see the 8 chicks huddle at the side of the road because the mother hen took 9 chicks out for a walk and absentmindedly left 8 of them by the side of the road just a street down from their home, waking up at 6plus am because there is actually something to at 6plus am and not an empty house because this place is just filled with people.
everythings like so slow-moving here it's so nice. my dad commented that in this place, people have time for each other. and i guess it's true. like, in Singapore, zebra-crossing only works when the pedastrian steps on the road, then cars MAY stop, but here, you can be very farawy from the zebra-crossing and if the driver senses that you are gonna cross the road then they will just stop anyway, and there's hardly any pressure for you to cross quickly. but of course, the malays here have more power i think. but omg. relak relak :)
but then again, life is so wols that it gets a little sian. like esp since i can't drive? so i can't get out to find friends or anything. wait, i don't even have phone reception, so i get smses intermittently. but wow, juwita from cfa managed to call me. :\ ha.
and oh ya, they have two dogs here. two sausage dogs. omg i love dogs now. hahahahaha. they are so fun to tease. and they are so sweet. like the younger dog is called fifi. and fifi is usually super scared of people, like it won't even let you touch it. but then it's quite relaxed and it let me carry it like a baby. and this morning when i woke up, and got out of my room, the two dogs were running around and fifi came and licked my toes. hahaha. freaking adorable.
now i sorta wish i had a dog. cats first, then maybe a dog.
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okayy so today is the 4th day in brunei. so far so good. i've been catching up on sleep. last night slept like around 8 plus. i meant to like catch up with my friends here but right now im stuck in this place which is not very far from town, but i can't drive and there are pratically no public transport here so im stuck. and i can't ask pple to drive in because they have to pay toll which is like 6 bucks? cos my uncle's place is going towards m'sia and they stupidly placed a toll both there for pple to pay for the bridge they built that connects this part of brunei to msia. and anw, my cousin's computer is full of fringe, lost, csi miami and all this other shows? and gossip girls??? gasp. he's a guy btw. and like 2 years older than me. and there is jenniffer's body as well. HAHA. yays!!! zzz but anyway, it's a blessing in disguise because i badly need the sleep and rest. so im actually quite disinterested to meet them already. anw, im sorta annoyed. my mom said i was a little fat and then now my uncle met me and he said i was majorly fat and that it was downhill for me. wtf. and he predicted my wt to be like 60? :( well, not that im depressed about it. but it's just a bit annoying because im trying to tell myself that im okay wt. well on the bright side, dud and i are okay finally. :) im glad. hope it lasts forever. and, results come out tmr? WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. scared. and the production (the only thing that floats in my mind all the time really) is at a standstill. im freaking out. but anyway, i wish u all a happy holidays! merry xmas! don't stuff urself (like turkeys)! hahahaa. lame.
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where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling
spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
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http://www.onemorelevel.com/game/the_company_of_myself
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i don't understand how i can feel so damn fucking down for so many days in a row. wtf. something interesting has to happen and take me out of my own head.
:(
shld i get another ear piercing? shld i get a piercing somewhere else? a tattoo!
well, something did nearly lift me out of the mood. a cute guy at this chocolate shop seemed interested in my cousin. but he was SO shy it was so funny. okay, actually thinking about it makes me feel slightly cheered up again.
now the thing is to keep my mind off myself because it spreads so quickly engulfing every single aspect of myself that i hate. :(
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but i feel like im dying inside. i keep shopping and getting out but i don't feel any happier. it's just so unexplainable. my mind just oscillates between d and what happened on wed. :(
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i cannot even bear to see partying photos. makes me feel super nauseated.
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sometimes i am just left so confused as to what is going on.
and actually, super larmbho on the go is the worst idea on earth.
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