dragging my heels on the ground
i'm feeling a little sad. and i can't think of a thing that could possibly make feel better. company? good coffee? shopping? cloak it with words like awesome and super?
before, when i was sad, all i wanted to do was wallow at home and blog about how upset i felt. but then all i had left to look back on was a bunch of sob blog entries. recently, i vowed that my blog should only reflect positive things, so i resisted the urge to blog on any negativity. subsequently, my blog became empty.
during RP, when they asked me to pen down the happiest day of my life. i blanked out. everything makes me smile, but the word 'happiest' seemed not to ring any bells or knock any doors in my mind. not even a dusty old closet. i could not at all retrieve a single memory that i can deem as happiest. maybe it's because i'm predisposed to be pessimistic, maybe i just haven't experienced enough hardship, maybe my life's too wonderful to even pick on a single happy incident. i can't decide. i shall have to think about it.
change. time for a change again. i am determined to blog everyday. and i shall only blog about the wonderful things that happen to me on that super day. my life is more colourful than i imagine and there's a silver lining in every dark cloud.
i hate lying to myself
xoxo guys and don't worry. =) im not as sad as i sound! =) =) =)
